Athena must be growing again in My Head-

In Greek Mythology Athena, the goddess of wisdom, was sprung from her father's great wisdom during a massive migraine headache! I can only imagine what type of wisdom I must be birthing in my head with this headache I have. 

So last time I talked about all the expectations I felt like I was dealing with at my age. Here again lies an issue with expectations. So I am 26...I am a teacher. I like my career field and I could see myself continuing to work in that field. It's a rewarding career even though it doesn't pay the most...and you're not always rewarded by society it's still a nice job...Anyway so I feel smack dab in the middle of what I was saying earlier. So I want to keep being successful in my job, but I also want to have a good relationship with the man I love. It seems so hard though because we both have so much that we want to do with out life. He is smart and intelligent and naturally wants to make the most of his intelligence as well, and of course I want him to be successful as well. So in us both wanting to be so successful within our own careers and fields where does that leave our life together? I want what most women want, to be in a loving situation with the person they love. And deep down I think men want the same thing as far as being with the person they love? I don't know, I mean I want us to both get what we want without either one of us having to feel like we're not getting something. I don't know how to make our relationship work and our careers work too. I want to be close to him, but does he want the same thing? Trying to read emotions of the opposite sex is next to impossible. I don't want him to see me as a lame girl that just wants to run behind a male because I'm far from it...but dang is it so wrong to want to spend your days with the person you love. I don't know...just when I thought things were going down an road where I might be able to tell the direction, dang if I didn't run into another fork in the road...Guess I will have to see where this road takes me? I am in love that's the clearest point...but love doesn't always take us where we want it to or think it will...


Guess that's part of the headache in my brain...lol that and this horrible mix of bcps I keep taking yuk! lol